Do You Really Suck or is it Imposter Syndrome?
My stomach lurched, my head felt light. I wanted to run into my bedroom and bury myself under the covers. No, I didn’t have a weird covid variant. I was about to present work to our CEO. Imposter Syndrome rushed through my body. “You don’t belong here,” my brain told...
Why You Can’t Find the One (and Why It’s Ok): Part 3
“And then like that, he was gone. Why is it so hard to keep the one, after we find them?” asked Katie. Katie had just experienced another heart wrenching breakup. She’s been chasing “the one” for 20 frantic years. Career, social life, and self identity were hastily...
When People Don’t Want to Hear Your Truth
Other people shut down my truth “Look at the abundance you have. Get a grip, Heidi.” I spit out my coffee. Woah. I was being accused of “broadcasting my woes” as a one dimensional banshee. These weren’t the type of Instagram comments I expected at 6am. The comments...
2020 Destroyed My Life, So I’m Creating a New One
2020 Destroyed My Life as I Knew It. Before the 2020 pandemic, I had a committed partnership, a house in a beautiful neighborhood and a cush job in innovation where I was flown to New York to speak at conferences. As I walk out of the pandemic in Spring 2021,...
Five Awesome Things the Pandemic Has Done for Me (The Pandemefits)
The pandemic has tested my family’s sanity. We’ve turned our house into a joint office / daycare center. We multitask endless zoom calls alongside dishwasher unloading, toddler butt wiping (video off) and remote happy hours (video on)…..
Five Reasons to Get to the Mountains NOW
“Climb the mountains and get their good tidings. Nature's peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees.” John Muir As soon as we approached Auburn on the I80 and saw the Sierra mountains in the distance, something happened.The stress that had been gripping my...
Please do this one thing for me …
Please tell me you see me. Please notice my breaths and efforts. Currently I feel invisible and alone. We all do. How can you see me, you ask? What exactly should you notice? Anything, as long as it’s specific. 1. Praise me for keeping the kids alive another day. One...
5 Ways I am Finding Hope after Ruth Bader Ginsburg Died
Just when you thought 2020 couldn’t get any worse, it did. Ruth Bader Ginsberg died. We lost a feminist, civil rights leader and icon of badass perseverance. And gained a glaring open seat on the Supreme Court. My hope for a better tomorrow vanished. I was sliding...
Releasing Unforgivable Hurts
“Every marriage suffers unforgivable hurts,” I remember my mother saying. I was young at the time and had no idea what she was referencing. Nor did I want to know. I preferred to think of my parent’s marriage as perfect. Hurts, sure, yes. But I imagined them fleeting...
How the 2020 End of Days is Slowly Killing Me
It was the end of 2020 end of days. Pantone Orange 9-2020. Images of the orange sky in California went viral. Looking at the sun confused my daughter. She thought the orb in the sky was a bleeding moon. She wanted to give it a band-aid. I didn’t know if the earth...
